Heys..

LOL 1 year+ and this blog is still here.. totally forgot all about it until recently lols..

Well, time to update this.. where to start.. im still with the boyfriend Binh.. had few ups and down but we held on.. currently in the middle of my HSC.. im half way there! haha cant wait till its all overr.. uhmz over the past year, alot has happened within my family and its still not over yet.. hopefully soon though =)

Currently waiting for Binh to come back from uni to chat to me cause im sooo bored =( lols oh oh and yayy! next week is my last exam then imma go city with jessica [YAYY ^^] .. dinner at mounties and beach woohoo! so exciting hehe ^^ I wonder how things are going to be like after school.. its already boring lols well i should update this more soon =) Take care people.

I miss Y O U

heys

guess what!? holidays just ended ! BOOOO!! lols damn i wanted the holidays to be a little tiny weeny longer..wasnt ready to go back yet but yeahs.. My holidays were okays..did quite a few things actually.. like going to the movies and friends house and city and yeahs =) ..

First day back of school today.. how did i feel?.. hmmz i dont know how i felt actually.. i wasnt excited to go back nor did i wanna come back lol.. but it turned out okays i think.. the fact that it was raining made my day so depressing.. I have alot on mind and when it rains it makes me think even more lol.. Again i havent been happy lately.. so lost and confused in my own mind.. he takes me up and down.. I dont really know how his feeling nor what he thinks.. guys man so bloody confusing and i thought girls were more confusing than they are -.-" .. he tells me he likes me.. but why do i get the feeling that his lieing?? he doesnt like me but i dnt know why he says he does.. he tells me he likes me but he doesnt show itt.. I feel like a fool .. a hell of a BIG one.. I have no idea what to say or do.. just gotta wait and see what happens next i guess.. if its gonna be like this i guess im just gonna back away and let things be.. so sick and tired of everything already.. its killing me inside and he doesnt even know..

Why does he always have to make me cry? I wish he was here to dry my tears.. give me a shoulder to lean on.. comfort me and tell me everything would be okay.. but thats never gonna be the case..

                                              | In this game of love... |

Hi Hi ! =)

lols wow i almost forgotten about this blogdrive until a friend mentioned about it and i was like thinking 'hmm i have one too but its prob dead now'.. haha i havent updated since new years or something ha? been lazy i guess.. lols but ill try and update it more often =)

Hmm where to start from here? lol oh yeahs ! Im officially in year 11 ^^ .. haha first year of senior school.. how does it feel? well i dont know.. feels the same as every other years..so yeahs lOls but its different this year because my bestfriend left to another school and everything just isnt the same without her.. I use to go all crazy in school cause of her but not anymore..well my randomness is still there somewhere but ..i dont know >.<" just isnt the same man.. Its been a term since she left so im getting use to everything now .. still miss her heaps though.. =(

And another thing.. everyone probably all know this by now but yeahs.. lol me and boyfriend broke up about 2-3 weeks ago?.. yeahs.. depressing shit i know.. well for me haha .. Sometimes i still cant believe its over? I mean.. when we broke up.. it didnt really hit me until like a week later.. thats when i realised its really over.. lasted 10 months and 1 week and now its all over.. back to the beginning again.. At first when i see him around school, my heart beats really fast and i feel so weak..maybe because i couldnt really face him yet cause i have no idea what to say him.. but eventually we started talking again ^^ so it was good.. I dont think theres a day thats gone by without me thinking of him..missing him or even thinking about the times that we once had together.. sweet memories =) .. It hurts me to see him around in school and his not happy..i just wanna do something to make him smile but i know i cant do anything ..so i just have to walk past him as if i dont care whether his happy or not.. Sometimes its the little thing he say or do that shows me he still cares.. Like a couple of days ago..it was on the day of the disco at recess..I was walking to my hang out area and i was looking down at the oval and i really wasnt paying attention of the people or things around me and from the side of my eyes i saw a leg about to kick me so i stopped all of a sudden and it was him.. made me jump.. lol then he asked me why i wasnt in mufti and i told him why cant i be in school uniform?.. I guess he was about to leave but he turned around and asked me how was life.. for some reason that question touched me ..usually it wouldnt touch me but maybe because it was from him? ..=) and yeahs i was smiling for the rest of the dayy.. hehe his still someone i consider important and special to me.. he can make me happy by just seeing him smile hehe I wonder if he knows how special he is to me .. he probably doesnt but ah wells! .. doesnt matter anymore.. the only thing that matters now is that me and him are friends and talking woO! haha .. If i ever had a chance to go back with him.. I dont know what my decision will be .. I really really really want to give it another try.. but then again i dont know >.<" .. highly doubt ill ever get another chance with him but.. I asked my bestie if she'll get angry if i ever get back with him and she says no she'll actually be happy for me cos she hates seeing me sad.. so yeahs ^^. i was happy about what she said .. thats why i love her soO much.. shes always there for me and always have stuck by my side.. no matter what decision i make shes always supporting me =) .. love you so much Jesh! *hugs Jesh tight haha.. and thanks to the people who was there for me after what happened.. without your love and support .. i dont think ill be better and happy this fastt hehe love you guys all! ..

Well now.. its the first day of Holidays ! and its good friday -.-" .. everything is closed besides cabra i think? haha! stay home today and chill .. me and my dramas ^^ haha love them to death! .. Im gnna miss him and Jesh heaps in the holidays.. but i do hope i go out with them .. haha I know ill be going out with Jesh.. but not so sure about him?.. but *cross fingers.. well even if i bump into him in the holidays ill be happy lols.. =D .. hmmmz i think thats all that happened so far this term.. but yeahs.. holidays ahhaha.. get to sleep in ^^ and relaxxx ! weeee! but not really im gnna start on my assignment.. dont wanna procastinate cos then ill be so stffed.. gtta get higher mark then them muahaha lols well imma end it here and ill be back! haha lets see if my next entry will be a positive or negative one haha..

Toodles people! =) **keep smiling

Shes become a pro at putting on a fake smile and pretending none of this is killing her

Dont worry about the people in your past, theres a reason they didnt make it to your future

You gotta hurt in order to know, fall in order to grow, lose in order to gain, because most of lifes lessons are learned because of pain.

When you leave, my smile will follow. Keep it, it's yours now- to use if yours ever runs out.

Waitin for the impossible, for three words to be said.
Holding onto hope, hope that they're meant for me.

Smile so the tears dont fall,
laugh like you never been hurt before,
fake it so he'll never know
that you still haven't let him go

Your mind understands
What your heart doesn't want to.

Telling me and showing me are two very different things.

its amazing how you go from
being strangers; to being friends.
from being friends; to being more than friends
from more than friends; to strangers again.
and it all happens to fast

How come you have enough time to go out and make other people fall in love with you but you dont have enough time to pay attention to the one who already does?

Though my heart's still broken and aching with pain,
Though my tears still fall fast and hard like rain.
Though my world's still black and I want to die,
I'm trying to hold on even as I cry

Everyday I`m gonna get up and live
I`m gonna breathe, laugh, and even smile
and maybe one day I`ll have a reason to

Everything happens for a reason.Sometimes things fall apart just so other things can fall together.But in the end whats meant to be-Will always find a way

When we were together, you said age was nothing but a number
Once you left, I said love was nothing but a word

Your love for me is like watching what you wrote on a foggy window slowly fade away.

You were the one who made me smile,when I was feeling blue,
you were the one with the advice to myself be true.
You were the one who could smile when the times were
rough, you were the one through it all who has made me
tough. Your spirts were always high even when the rest of you was
down and upon your face you would never see a frown. I loved you most of all for who you allowed me to be and most of all for who you were you meant the world to me

Happy new years everyone ! ^^

New years has hit fast aye? I wasnt really ready for a new year yet.. cause i felt as though i havent done something to accomplish 06 .. ah wells! did you guys enjoy your new years? .. cause i surely didnt.. =[ lols..hmmz lets see.. new years eve..I went cabra then headed to some boring ass party with rents.. lols i went to their living room and slept for awhile.. then i went to city with my 2 brothers..sister and song.. it really didnt turn out the way i thought it will.. like it ever does anyways..but yehs it was full on packed ! we had to push and shove to get to places manz.. like sheesh! i bloody hate walking past this one area.. the area where they were street dancing.. farraout.. they had like glasses and beer on the groundd.. >.<" didnt even really get a good view of the fireworks.. was so dissapointed.. regret that i even went..wouldve been better if i stayed home and watch it on televisions! then at the 12 oclock fireworks some effin dickhead snatched my cousins phone but he manage to got it back.. freakkk that TOTALLY ruined my new years!..well yehs.. got home around about 1.30ish and went to buy porkroll and a drink cause i was bloody hungry as! lol 1.30am ..sitting at cabra eating.. now thats something you dont do everyday.. lols yeh i was dead tired that night..

Hmmmmz.. havent really done anything after new years.. pretty boring..last night i couldnt really sleep cause i had a nap earlier.. but yeahs i layed on the bed thinking about the year 06..alot of things happened.. 06 went by so fast..many laughters,pains,tears and alot of memory!..couldnt even bleve its 07 already.. well what happedn in 06 for me..from beginning till end

-Minh telling me he had a gf
-My Birthday
-Year 10 camp
-Things happened between me and daniel
-Things happened between me and phong
-Getting over an ex
-Dating Binh
-Binhs birthday party
-Mine and binhs 1-7 months anniversary
-School senior interview day
-Meeting daniel at partyy [heater lols]
-Meeting Jae at Moon festival
-School certificate
-Getting angry at Binh
-Year 10 formal
-addicted2monokuro Boo
-Year 10 picnic day [jamberoo]
-Year 10 graduation
-Dayout with Jess Song Jae and Winnie
-Christmas party with the chungalengskies! ^^
-Christmas
-New years eve
&& many more but dont wanna mention them ..they're more like probs? haha well yehs.. overall 2006 was okays..not so good..but not so bad? lols

Holidayyss... its okays so farr.. still got like another 4 weeks to go! what am i gonna do? oh yehs thats right .. i got work for 2 weeks.. so thats 2 weeks gone for me..hmmz oOoh yehs what did you guys do for christmas? .. christmas was alrightt ^^.. saw Bimi on christmas eve puahaha! well i saw him a couple of times earlier as well.. always see him at cabra lmaO!.. well the only time we see each other is at cabra anyways hahaha! weird.. saw him at cabra like on saturday as well haha!.. well the only reason why i went cabra that day with mum and sis was because i had a feeling i was gonna see him xD lols.. was walking out of jewellry store and like i felt a tap on my arms.. thought joanna tapped me so i looked at her and said 'what?'.. and shes like 'o.O what?'.. ahah.. then stupid Bimi scared me .. fully went 'RRAWWWR!'.. i just jumpedd haha!.. it was HIM who tapped me ! xDDD.. we stood there and talk for HOW LONG!? lolsss.. well it was the longest we've talked in awhile now ^^ kekeke.. was happy that day.. and his so dopeyy haha.. ill shpw you a part o our convo..

Mimi: What are you doing tonight?
Binh: I got a wedding tonight
Mimi: oh yeahs thats right
Binh: aww but i wanted to go watch fireworks
Mimi: thats tomorrow!
Binh: no
Mimi: yes today is only the 30th
Binh: *check his phone* oh yehs i think i looked at November 
Mimi: *laughs inside* ahaha!

hahaha *sighs bimii.. why do you always argue with me? lmao! you're so argumentiveee ! i swearrr ! lolss.. nxt time our argument gonna be physical okays? we're gonna have a one on one match .. lmao Binh the bimbo vs Mimi the superwoman lmaO haha  hmmmmz.. im so bored.. and its only 4.45 ! like omg.. i want to watch some films! lalalalala! wheres Bimi now? =[ ..

weeee! anyways.. im gonna try enjoy myself today somehow.. haha ! by chatting xDD lols.. toodles noodles ! *waves

well hello all..

havent written here for awhile now.. since my 6 months.. hmm ill try to remember everything that happened afta that lolss.. hmm well.. afta my 6 months i was getting ready for the SC i guess.. cant believe sc is over now.. it was okays i guess.. on the day of our comps exam.. me jess and danny went to Bonny in the mornin ..walk der from skOol and back..so tiring.. buh alot of things happen on da way whcih was funny lols.. and yeahs.. then we had our year 11 rollover.. its going okays not that bad.. and yehs.. not many things happened lols.. boring boring..

Hmm well last week on wednesday.. the day i always look foward to cos last two period i get to see my bf.. well sumwhere near da end of lunch ..i saw him walk in the gates carrying sumfin white.. so i thought it wood be hot chips and it was on a hot day.. and im jst like thinkin 'whys he eating that on a hot day?crazy'.. lols.. he walked up to me and he gave me and im like 'why u eatin chips?so hot'.. and his friends was like 'its cake'.. and im like 'oOoooo ^^' haha.. it was very delicious.. he told me its called 'black forest slice' or sumfin like that.. so sweet of him xDD.. ofcorse i had trouble eatin it in sport cos it was big and no fork or nethin so yeahs i kinda ate messyy lols.. and while i was eating Bimi and his friends keep tryn to hit the ping pong ball at mee >=[ so evill lols.. buh yeahs ..that day bimi was very different.. he was full of surprises lols.. he was in a happy mode too i guess..keeps pickin on me anD laughin.. and ofcorse i always lose argueing with him.. but it was funn.. love him oh so mcuh! .. and yeahs.. =]

Last friday was our formal.. kinda forgot abt it during da day den yeahs cos i was so tired .. afta skool went cabra to get my hair done.. went home got dress and waited for alex to come ..he came and he looked very handsome..and then we waited for Jae to come.. and he looked very handsome as well.. den we drove to macquarie function.. first we drove to da rong place lols.. buh yeahs we made it der.. and my heels were killing my feet jst by walkin to da front >.<" but yeahs the night was okays i guess.. didnt really turn out the way i picture it to be.. food was gayy only loved the desserT.. itll be good if my bf went wif me thO buh yeahs his gayy.. was missing him the whole night.. yeahhhhhss..

Monday ..i went to Jae's early birthday at the city with alex and their friends.. alex picked me up at 4 and we went to pik up Jennifer den went to cabra to pik up da cake.. den we went to pik up Jen's bf and headed to Jae's house.. waited for awhile and soon drove to pik up jae's friend Janna and Jae's sister's bf and we were on our to citty.. it was a LONG drivee.. took us 3 hour ! we got out of the car like at 7.. lols.. den we went to eat at some place..food was okay.. den walked to darling harbour and just sat der.. me and jen went to buy some candles buh coodnt find ne buh we manage to get 2 candles lols.. den went back and sang happy birthday to jae and blew da cake.. nd yeahs.. the city night view was so nice.. like full oN!.. i just wished he was der with me =[ .. but yeahs we stayed der for awhile den went to get a drink den headed to cashbox to sing karaoke.. by that time i was like dead lols.. den 12.30 we left the place and went to pik up jae's sister and her bf from formal.. and we were on our way home.. i was so sleepy and drowsy and slept in the car lols.. was like an hour drive! buh felt so much longer den that lols.. and yeahs got home like round 1.50 or so.. next day of sKool i was like deaddd.. lols.. my friend sed i looked dead and sound dead.. haha but yeahs it would be my first and last time going out that late.. so tirinG ..

Today .. its wednesday and like i sed.. i look foward to this day every weeK.. buh today was gayy.. didnt do sport bcos rollcall teacher asked me jess to help him out on sumfin .. and yeahs it took 2 whole periods like omg.. i was feeling sad buh didnt shOw it.. *sigh cos all that time i coodve spent time with Bimi..=[ but me and jess stayed aftaskOol anyways.. my reason to stay was cos of HIM! .. buh we hardly een talk.. that was freaken gayy.. never ever staying bak afta skOol manz.. i was kinda dissapointed in somehinG.. something got to me.. wasnt a good feeling at all.. i know bimi is the type who doesnt show his love but he does love you.. buh ionos >.<"" every now and then i get this feeling where he doesnt actually likes me.. but someone else.. and i wont mention that person's name.. and yeahs makes me paranOid.. mayb its just me and my stoopiD thoughts..prob not even true.. I serzly coodnt help myself but cried myself to sleep this arvo.. aiish ! >.<" i freaken dunnoe manz.. so fcken gayy.. **SIGH** ..itll be stoopid for me to ask him abt it.. ill jst keep it to myself.. im really not lookin foward to skool tmr altho we have a half day strike ..wanna take a day off tmr buh i cant doGg jess.. so yeahs.. dont wanna feel this way nemore.. its really not a good feeling at all.. *sigh

anyways might as well end it here.. nothing else to say..just wanted to express my feelings in here cos i noe not many people read it.. so yeahs.. nites people

aHoyyyy there !! ^^

yesterday was my 6 mOnths with my boyfriend.. HAPPY 6 MONTHS HUN!! *muahs .. I was in a great mood ehehe..this is my longest relationship and im hoping itll last.. well i didnt see Bimi till sportt time.. was waiting for him to comee.. and YES! i finally saw him hehe he sed happy 6 months! xD thought i woodve been the one that had to say it first hehe.. well he was being bumm..i like it wen his like thiss.. i think this is like my 2nd or 3rd time ive seen him like this hehe.. so childishh lols.. well yeahs i was feeding him skittless.. and on my first one.. it dropped out lmaO! my faultt.. i didnt put it in his mouth properlyy so funnyy.. but the second one went straight in hehe.. den i saw a scrunch up paper ball on the ground so i picked it upp.. and i fed him itt.. buh damn it! he knew.. i thought he woodnt noe and jst eat itt.. lmao! that woodve been so funnyy.. hehe and Jess gave me weird looks cos she saw me feeding him paper.. den stoopid Bimi tackled mee to the groundd! haha nahs he tackled me and i landed on his legs haha.. yeahs.. den aftwards he went to play table tennis.. and like 5 mins later.. i came from behind and covered his eyes.. ahaha he didnt noe who it wass..wen he knew.. omg he carried me up and spun me around.. >.<" lols.. that guyy likes to throw me around places haha! ..hmm den it was his turn to come up bhind me and covered my eyes.. ahah he was being a bum and faking a girls voice .. so funny haha but cute ^^.. and he did it agnz a second time! and i knew it wos him.. so i sed 'BINH!'.. and he faked a teachers voice and sed 'noo its Mr Ho!' ahahahahaha! den he fully laughs afta that =.= buh he was so cutee! hehe.. wen he was talkin to his friend.. i blew in his ear ahaha! mustve been loud wasnt it hun? lols.. well i dnt care cos he did it to me earlierr.. was loud! .. and he did it agn a second time .. such a bum lols.. the score is still 2:1 .. u watch out Bimi! lols..xD..

 hehe i had a memorable 6 monthhss.. and a fun one as well.. alot of laughters that we shared togeda.. its a memory that ill never forgett..=] .. oh and hun.. u should be like this more often.. i like it hehehe!.. hmm am i gnna ever have sport with u agnz? hopefully i doo! its so funn hehe..

Well today is Thursdayy.. i woke up lookin foward to go to skool and see Bimi and friends.. first off.. i head to petrol station to get Linhie flowerss.. den went to greenies.. den walked to skool and went to Bimi.. he told me i bought the ugliest flowers ever haha hhmph! nort like he noes how to pick flowers that buttheadd lols.. den i went to Linhie and gave her flowerss.. received a BIgggG hugG! hehe.. den yeahs.. rest of the day was quiet normal.. oh nOo besides period 1 and 2.. we had maccaz xD we had maccaz coffee as well.. it tastes a lil plain cos i didnt put much sugar in cos der was none left!.. tasted funny so i gave it to Bimi.. haha he sed it was shit too buh he drank most of it haha.. der was a tiny bit left and he gave it back to mee =.= coodve jst drank it all? lols.. so yeahs i had to drink the leftovers.. i bet he was lazy to chuck it in the Bin haha.. den i walked away.. period 3 ! Bimi's class was nxt to minee.. so yeahs.. i was listenin to mOosik and jst lookin at him..makes me miss him even tho his jst over der? hahaha so weird.. but yeahs waited for period 3 and 4 to be over.. so lunch i can see him xD.. i walked out of class and waited for Bimi to tell him ill see him later.. and jst as i turn around to see if he was cummin out.. he jumped out of nowhere and scared the crap out me and jess ahaha! cute cute ! ^^ .. den yeahs.. walked jess to toilet and dropped her off at library cos she had to meet a teacher der for help of work.. so i went down to Bimi.. and guess wah?.. he wasnt there that assholee.. he was at a meetinggg.. so i stood der with eric.. listenin to Moosik.. hopin he'll finish at second half.. buh noo he toook longer den tahtt.. so i continued waitingg.. and waitingg.. waitingg.. and da dahhhh!! he finally appeared in the last 5 mins of lunch =.=.. buh yeahs better den nothing haha.. eric was like to him 'u made her wait'.. and he looks at me and gives a 'idc look' and sed 'who cares its only her' and i was like =O and he starts laughing that asswipee! haha i knew he was muckin around hehe den bell wentt walked with him to class.. actually he walked me to class.. hehe on the wayy.. i was complainin to him how he made me waitt .. i sed 'u made me waitt..i coodve been doing sumfin better'.. and he gives me some lOok..he probably thought i woodve went and spend time with some oda guy .. haha and he pretended to punch me in da facee lols.. den im like.. 'u noe wah im gnna do to u on april fools?' and he goes 'wah?'.. and im like.. 'im gnna say i want to go separate ways'.. and his like ' far if u do that im not gnna talk to u for 2 WHOLE monthss and if u sms me im gnna stff it'..and im like =O 2 months!!! thats bloody longg hahhaa.. why not 1 day? haha.. buh yeahs.. buh for sure i wont do it.. cos he might take it serzlyy den our relationship might end and itll be my faullt .. lols.. buh yeahs.. stoopid Bimi i didnt get a goodbye kiss.. buh doesnt matter most of my friends were around so yeahss .. gnna be weird hehehe.. and yes thats my dayy! hehe

Hmm ionos buh im thankful for what ive learnt in my past relationshipps.. wah ive learnt afta the breakup and also in the relationship.. because thats wah made me hold onto bimi for sO long now..if it wasnt for the things ive learnt during my past relationship den maybe me and bimi woodnt be where we are todayy.. =] Im hoping me and bimi will continue like thiss.. Im loving every bit of itt.. throo our ups and downs.. we manage to get throo itt.. also with the help of my bestie.. without her ionos wah ill doo.. buh pity shes not gonna be here nxt year.. ionos how ill bee.. *sigh gnna face reality i guess?.. Im wishing her the best in every she does..and i surely will miss her dearlyy! ='[

x3 Loving Jess and Bimi heapss ! x3

heyy

Another week has gone by so fast.. this week wasnt all that good buh some days were okays i guess.. Friday was one of the worst day..i saw my bf angry face..even if he didnt tell me ..i knew wah he was upset about.. I guess he been holding it in for awhile now and yeah he just burst..then he walked away.. I went to his class to wait for him ..ionos if he saw me buh it looked like he did..wen i was standing der i hope for him to walk up to me.. i wanted to apologize to him..buh he didnt.. afta not noeing wah to do i went off to class.. was feeling so much pain.. i was unhappy that i made him worry and angry.. >.<"

So that day i decided to talk to do sumfin..hoping itll make my bf more happy.. i wanted things between me and him to go smoothly before our 6 months.. cos i really wanna enjoy that day with him..seeing him joke and smile.. I dnt want him to look grumpy on our 6 months.. so yeahs.. when i was thinking.. i was putting myself in his shoes..i understand the way he feels.. if it was some oda girl doin that to my bf.. i wouldve been unhappy as well.. so yeahs thats wah made my decision..

Im sorry hun..iono watta say..buh all i want u is to be happy..forget everything thats happened and lets just be happy okays?.. Im trying my best to keep our relationship as good as possible..buh i cant do this myself.. I need you to work with me also..

On saturday.. i went tutorr den cabra.. i went home early cos i thought i woodnt see my bf out der cos its saturday.. and his usually der on sundays.. buh i thought rong..he was der !.. so regret goin home earlyy.. >.<"" was so pissed .. but yeahs then later on that night i went weddingg.. it was alrightt.. cute newlyweds xD when they were dancing.. i looked at dem the whole time..jst thinking of Bimi.. wondering wah his doing..and how he was doing..is he missing me like im missing him? or is he still angryy.. yet i dunnoe.. i tried washing all those thoughts away by dancing..it worked..had fun dacningg buh afta all that i felt down just thinkin of Bimi agn ! >.<"

Sunday..woke up and went to tutor AGN! since my SC is almost here and yeahs ..need lotsa revisions..lols.. tutor was okayys ..i came late as usuall..was tired frm last night.. afta tutor.. thuy(teacher) took us to the moviess.. we had our good laughs like always.. we wnet to watch SAW 3..it was disgusting.. had to cover my face on most of the disgusting partss.. coodnt watch itt.. lols.. and guess wah? in the cinemas..i was thinking of Bimi as well.. =[ i just wished he was der with me watching it.. buh wen will that wish ever come true? buh yeahs.. on the way home.. katrina and phillip was fighting as usuall .. was funnyy.. cats and dogs hehe thuy dropped us all home and yeahs .. oh yeahs forgot to mention.. me katrina phill went to this pet store..and omg.. i saw this dog.. it looked sO adorbale! buh it also looked sad.. i jst stared itt.. lols.. and i saw this black thing lieingg.. i thought it was a black puppy dOg.. i came up so close to the window jst to look at its face.. to my surprise it wasnt a dOg..it was catt.. omg scared me.. i jst started to imagine scary things looking at that black cat... it had its eyes open >.<"" buh yeahs.. it was small and cute in a wayy.. buh i like dogs more xD lols..

yehhs.. so overall.. lets just say my weekend was not that good.. buh okays i guess.. coodve been better.. imma jett now.. take care

P.S im sorry hunn..stop being angryy ..i like it better wen u smile and laugh.. wah happen to the adorable facee? *pinches bimi's cheeks* hehehe .. smile for me okayys????.. i love you..

Heys..

Well ..skool today was gayy.. i didnt feel as happy as the other days.. do we really live in two different world? isnt it jst the way our life work is diffrent?.. people's life is hard in many different ways but sometimes we jst gotta fight through it.. today was emotional..felt crying like so many times today..seeing her like this makes me feel so helpless.. no matter how much i wanna help her i cant do anything.. makes me so angry cos i cant do anything to make her happy.. afta telling me all these things shes like 'Mimi help me'.. sounded like she had no life there..all i sed was 'how?'.. and she sed 'i dnt know'.. we both know theres nothing we can dO.. *sigh i can only be der to comfort her.. but thats not enough..

My head feels heavy now days.. I dont get to see Bimi as much makes me miss him so much.. but i can only leve those feelings aside atm.. but dont get me rong okays bubs? you know why already.. Ever get the feeling when you try to make someone happy?.. well atleast u dnt want to do anything to bring dem down.. but it doesnt work?.. doesnt make me feel so good when i know i made them sad.. they dont tell me how they feel.. but its all written on their face.. I can so feel it.. If only they said they dont like me doing this or that then ill stop? is it that hard to say? ..mayb cos you dnt want me to think that ur controlling my life and all aye?.. hmm but doesnt matter.. just keep in mind that no matter wah happens between us.. through our ups and downs..no matter how hard and difficult the situation is ..we'll work it out together..

I sit here and i keep wondering hows it gonna be like next year?.. how many times are we gonna go out nxt year?.. what happens wen im depress?.. *sigh gonna be so different i guess.. feel like tho a part of me gonna be missing.. the person who i share all my secret and fears with,laughters and tears is not gonna be here?.. thought we were gonna graduate together but looks like thats not gonna happen anymore.. ah wells..just as long as ur happy den im happy..=]

You said 'i dont know whats it like to be in your position cos im not the one leaving EVERYTHING behind'.. thats true.. but if i was to put myself in your shoes den mayb i will know how u feel.. leaving everything bhind may feel like you dnt have nothing to be happy for nemore.. but im sure.. that everything of yours will come back..so for the mean time try be happy now ..we may not get everything we want and life never goes the way we imagine it to ..but no-one ever said life goes the way its planned anyways.. everyone goes through rough times.. so rough that they think they cant handle it.. but we just go through it at different stages in life.. you may think one person is happy..but who cant force a fake smile? you cant always see or feel the pain that that one person has.. no-one is really happy i guess.. well they do feel happy.. but that feeling never last.. theres always an end to it sumwhere.. and ofcorse you can be happy agnz if you just fight through it.. though you maybe in alot of pain atm.. we all understand..but dnt u think evryone around you is also feeling the same?.. we're all not happy about it.. so why not take this pain altogther and fight till the end?

BOO! hehe !

wee! ^^ so where should i start off?.. holidays.. haha holidays was alright i guess.. had a few parties.. sad days and happy days.. but most of the time was jst staying home i think lmaO! anyways stff holidays aside .. First day back of skool we had an English exam.. it was okays i guess.. but did bad in da multiple chOice.. hehe den some people went home cos no exams in the arvO.. but i had to stay bak for commerce exams.. hmm i think saw Bimi at lunch that day? he came visit ^^ hehe..

Tuesday-  hmm we had Maths exam.. Jess was absent.. and omg >.<" i totally stffed upp .. was so sad haha! but ah wells ! do better in the SC i guess? lols den went to period 4.. which was Maths agn! omg had enough of maths for one day.. lols den i went down to Bimi..i may not look happy on da outside but inside i was feeling happy cos havent seen him for awhile.. missed him heapsh..! then went home..and yeahs

Wednesday - we had a science exam and a computer exam.. science was gayy.. and computer was okays?.. saw Bimi in the mornin but i didnt even smile or said hi to him.. jst went to his friends den walked off.. felt so bad thinkin abt it afta haha.. but he eventually came and his like 'this girl..full power walks off' haha! i was power walking u bumz.. i was walking very slow ..was tired u noe? lolss..

Thursday- hmmz thursday had a history exam and a pdhpe exam.. history was okays i guess?..hopefully i did gOod.. lols.. pdhpe was jst plain gayy..might fail that LOL! .. they asked us to list the steps in puttin on a condom.. and im sittin der wtf? i didnt study that! haha.. well i hardly studied for PD cos was busy studying for historyy.. lols.. hmmz did i see Bimi today?.. i dont think so =[ was missing him alott..

Friday- woopee! last exam for the week! well i headed to skool and was studying my notes and walkin at the same time.. arent i multi-talented? hahahaa hmmz the first 4 period was okays i guess.. i also used those 4 periods to study.. and in that 4 periods..i remember my essay i rote out in 2nd period..haha was happy ^^.. at lunch.. i was jst standin der talkin to Jess.. and guess who came?!? BIMII!! hehehe .. aww ..u dont know how happy i was to see himm.. full acted like an idiot haha!.. teasing him about the name i gave him 'bimi' lol.. doesnt it sound cute? Eric sed it was a poofters name haha! and i accidnetly called binh a girl woops! haha didnt mean to lols..just slipped out.. lmaO! wells yeahs.. cant explain the feelin wen i see him hehe itll be good if i get to spend the whole day with him just goin out.. that will happen oneday yeahs Bimi!? haha.. was so funny at lunch thO.. i think i was laughin too much (cos he was der ^^) and i started feelin hott.. and im like to Jess Binh and Eric..'is it gettn hot here? cos im feelin so hot'.. and Bimi was talkin.. den Jess goes.. 'mayb its cos of ur bf standin nxt to you'.. ahahaha! and he pushes me awayy.. thatt bummm lmao! cant stop thinkin abt itt.. hehe well the bell went fastt.. had to say bye bye to him and goodbye kiss and hug.. was wondering if ill get to see him on Monday.. lols headed down to D block for Geogrpahy exam.. i was so happy that i thought i was gnna forget evrything about Geo.. but thank god.. i put Bimi aside and concentrated.. and yeahs afta exam i started thinkin of him agnz.. we finished skool earlyy.. so me and Jess went toilett. and i knew wah Bimi had.. so i went to visit him.. haha ! he looked so dopeyy! but still cute to me ^^.. then..i was plannin to take pictures with Jessica.. BUT! i brang the camera without the battery! roflmao! was so funny.. full hyped up abt it with khiem and Jess.. and for some reason i coodnt turn on the camera.. den im like ahh crap! no battery lmaO! cos i was chargin it last night.. and there both like.. omg mimi! haha sorry guys! then the day ended.. so i waited for Bimi to come down the stairs so i can hug him agnz cos wont see him for 2 days! haha hopefully ill see him at cabra tmr sumwhere.. if he goes cabra thO.. lols and yeahs.. had a napp and now im up and typing this .. lols..

Hmmmz.. i gtta admit.. Bimi looks cute with his hair noww.. not sayn he looks cute in everybody's eyes.. but in my eyss he is! haha..! Jess said im a totally different person wen im with Bimi.. i was so happy to see him today.. and Jess said i was blushingg.. lols..  was i really blushing? cos i was feeling hot wen he was around.. or was it from laughin too much?.. Jess kept shaking her head.. wonder whyy ahah! got probss.. lols.. well yeahs ..friday was the best day of this week hehe!

now.. waiting for the School certicate to come.. kinda nervous wen i think about itt.. hmmz.. hopefully i do well.. anyways.. imma end it here and go write a letter to Jess..yup yupp.. bye bye ! *huggz

xoxo ][ we are the special two ][ xoxo

 B i m i =]